change of pace.

I did it. I formally submitted my resignation last week, effective the end of this month. Tis the first time I ever resigned from anything, so I was really somber the past few days. I struggled with the decision, always wondering if it's the right thing to do at the moment, considering the economy here, but everything's gettin' clearer as the day drew near. I handed my letter to my only contemporary in the office, in terms of lenght of tenure. He didn't take it well and urged me to reconsider. He said I should take a vacation if i'm just burned out. I'm really burned out but I do not need a vacation, I need a change. A change in my life. I never imagined I would go through this again after the first time, which was almost 10 years ago when I had 2 jobs. Anyway, at least I'm over one hump and I just have one more obstacle to hurdle, the exit interview.

ENough about it. I just pray that I made the right decision and hope this doesn't blow in my face. To end on a lighter note, a friend sent me this and I just have to share this with you.. (and I'm sure Laney will love this)

DORMITORY:
When you rearrange the letters:
DIRTY ROOM

PRESBYTERIAN: BEST IN PRAYER

DESPERATION: A ROPE ENDS IT

THE EYES: THEY SEE

GEORGE BUSH: HE BUGS GORE

THE MORSE CODE: HERE COME DOTS

SLOT MACHINES: CASH LOST IN ME

ANIMOSITY: IS NO AMITY

ELECTION RESULTS: LIES - LET'S RECOUNT

MOTHER-IN-LAW: WOMAN HITLER

SNOOZE ALARMS: ALAS! NO MORE Z 'S

A DECIMAL POINT: IM A DOT IN PLACE

THE EARTHQUAKES: THAT QUEER SHAKE

ELEVEN PLUS TWO: TWELVE PLUS ONE

PRESIDENT CLINTON OF THE USA:
When you rearrange the letters
(With no letters left over and using each letter only once):
TO COPULATE HE FINDS INTERNS

Yep! Someone with waaaaaaaaaaay too much time on their hands!

That's a wrap. In the words of the great Vee, Thanks for visiting!

where are they now?

Some are still here while others are not. I've just stumbled onto the old off-mic website. Kinda neat seeing everyone again. A much simplier time. Check this out.. http://offmic.freeservers.com. Enjoy!

rain, rain go away.

Twas a rainy week just passed and I'm not feeling any better, in fact I'm still in a rut. I haven't completely solved my problems with work the past few days, 'cept that I had talk with my boss last Tuesday and he told me what he expected from me and I wasn't holding up my end of the stick. At some points he was right and on other things he wasn't. I don't believe the idea that you're a good supervisor if a lot of people doesn't like you. I hope it's not true or I'm in a whole lot of trouble. I'm sure that things will be different from now on. I have to earn his trust all over again or maybe... it's time that I start doing things on my own now, inspite of all the difficulties. I've always said to myself that I'll keep doing this 'coz it makes me happy, what do you do when the one thing that you love doing is giving you so much stress? I didn't sign up for this.

"Rock, hard place.. Me!"

Not everything is gloomy around me. Just heard the good news that a couple-friends' will be gettin' married sometime in the next couple of months. Kudos to both of you. You know who you are.

August always makes me gloomy.

Highs and Lows

It's like having your heart broken for the very first time.

I just had a terrible week at work. So bad that I almost quit, not because he was wrong but for the reason that I thought of myself incompetent to do the job. I didn't quit though, but it sure made me think about my options and priorities. Maybe I'll just stick it out for a while longer and redeem myself and then leave. I know I'm capable enough to have my own practice but... there's still a lot of uncertainties out there... so maybe a little more time. My second option is to take up my Uncle's offer to try working in Singapore. A lot of my classmates work there so why not. (sigh) My ego's just shattered and I'm trying to pick up the pieces.

Things picked-up the last couple of days. The Lord is sure looking out for me. He always did, for quite a ong time now. Whenever something bad happens, He's always there to cheer me up. An email from a friend in NY, and a couple of phone calls from people I haven't spoken to in quite a while. Cheered me up, at least it took my mind of the blunder I made just a few days back.

Watched "the year of the Yao" and finished readin' the 6th Harry Potter book, all done to take my mind of things at least even for a while. I just pray I don't make any more mistakes this time.