musings from a bored man.

One thing that I have a lot of right now is time. I should be in a seminar about a new drafting software but my office probably haven't made the necessary arrangements yet. Right now, I'm just passing my time surfing the internet, scanning all my photographs, watching the NBA playoffs and loitering around the city. i am not complaining though. Not yet anyway.
I attended 2 reunions this past Sunday. The first was a get-together-planning session of my HS classmates and the second was my Tita's 50th birthday. Our batch is approaching our 20th jubilee and we shall celebrate it before our school closes shop. It's a sad thought knowing your school has to be closed because of a technicality and that's a story for another time. Our batch met in Pansol, Laguna to get the planning started. Though there were only 12 of us from a batch 0f 90 students, it's still fun seeing them again. Even if we didn't recognize each other instantly, once we got the hang of it's happy hour once again. Most of them brought their spouses and kids yet I was surprised to see some single people there, more than I expected. While we spoke of all our foolishness then, I saw the change in some of my classmates from reckless teens to responsible parents. I felt that I haven't much grown to what I wanted just by staying single. I now realize the joy of having kids early in life, that you'll enjoy watching them grow. back in high school, I knew then that I won't marry early but I didn't expect to still be single today. I have my reasons (nee excuses), some my own others not entirely my fault and I may still regret this in the future.
In my past, there were some events that in my life where I could have gotten hitched, but circumstances prevented it, some unintentional. The hurt it brought only made me cynical to a fault that I may be subconsciously preventing myself to love with all my heart. Time may heal all wounds but it certainly does not remove the scars, nor it makes you whole again. I know that everything happens for a reason and I will just have to keep my eyes and heart open for that person that I''ll spend the rest of my life with.